Hello all,
A rainy Thursday here. After tonight, I have the next three days off, which will be lovely. I am off to run errands in about a half hour. Out of cat food, and down to my last clean pair of pants (TMI?).
Didn't sleep much last night. I'm still not feeling very positive or upbeat about myself/my life, at the moment. Them's the breaks, I guess.
Breakfast this morning is consisting of some diet lemon-lime soda and a few honey-mustard flavoured Pringles...and my vitamins. I don't especially feel like eating, even tho' I'm hungry. Meh. I had a decent dinner last night: Sauteed Angus beef strips in a sweet onion sauce, steamed broccolli and curried rice. One good meal a day, that's good enough for me.
My appetite isn't too bad for a change, and I am actually hungry for once, but my emotional state doesn't leave me feeling much like eating, these days.
I'm hoping social services can help me, but they're so understaffed, overworked and underfunded now, that I'm not holding my breath. Yes, I am very pessimistic. I don't care. The bad stuff will always be a part of my life. The good stuff is mostly behind me. I can't complain..it'd be churlish to complain. I've had my run, got to do some cool stuff...got to do some hard stuff, too, but that's all of it now, water under the bridge.
For me, tomorrow doesn't "creep forth in it's petty pace from day to day." For me, there is only the here and now, there is no tomorrow. I don't want there to be...that would mean I'd have to face the harsh reality of my future, and that's an ugly, ugly thing...I really don't want to go there, thank you very much.
I was hoping to get to social services today, to see about some help, but overslept by 2 hours, so now I'll have to go there on my day off....wow, tomorrow is going to be rough! I have to go all the way north to Lake George (6 miles) to social services, I have to go to the pharmacy--which is in the exact opposite direction, in southwestern Glens Falls, I have to go to the post office, the grocery store and to Walmarts, to top off my phone card and get a haircut (I've been saving for a haircut for 3 weeks, so now I'll have the funds for it).
Mind you, without a car, this is going to be a massive pain in the arse, and one hell of a long day!
I have to go shower and change.
