Well, a rough night again...not my foot this time, but something internal. I'm sitting here trying to decide what to do...ignore my illness and just go to work as usual, or go to the health centre--the health center where half the time they could give a damn about me, and have IGNORED my symptoms, until they got worse ("oh no, you don't seem to have an infection there..." Two weeks later: "Oh, will you look at that, you have an infection there, gee what a surprise...") Or, I could go to the ER, wait around for 8 hours, and risk the chance of being put in hospital overnight--always a fear, 'cos of the cost...$1000+ bill arriving in the post less than a week later...not to mention two days (or more) lost pay.

I also have developed a "floater" (dark spots wavering in my vision) in my bad eye, which isn't serious (probably) but is highly annoying! Not going to be fun looking at my computer screen this afternoon.

Meh, I'll go to work and ignore it, maybe go to the stinking health center some other time...can't really spare the $20 to $25 co-pay, on top of the $7 in cab fare. I still have the gas/electric bill to pay, and am still $100 short for it--which has got to come out of my pay packet...not to mention the $45 for the internet bill...and the $78 I spend each week for my shots. But, the electric and gas bill comes first. That's not something that can be late, either...if I'm so much as one day late--no joke, National f'ing Grid won't turn a hair about shutting me off, trust me, the boys who own National Grid are greedy, obnoxious, soulless little piggies.

The rubbish people who own National Grid couldn't care one whit if their yobbo "pay us or else" policies actually kill some woman or man horribly, by allowing them to freeze to death--a slow and painful death, I might add. I'm of the mind the worst and most horrible thing this state ever did, was to take away much of their controls over big business. Sure, it helps free enterprise and the economy---but the cost to the poor, elderly and disabled is so awful, it doesn't bear thinking about! You CANNOT allow big corporations free rein, without dire consequences to a portion of your population. Big businesses ONLY motive is profit...and while some corporations do have a conscience, other's do have any at all. They have their snouts in the trough, and if someone gets in the way of the corporate gorge-fest, big business tramples that someone without a thought or care.

Governments who privatize utilites, schools, social programs, etc, are asking for much bigger problems. Sure, they save money, but in the end, the idiots in suits who we laughingly call our elected representatives, will probably shell out more in public assistance for people whom these corporations diddle, than if the goverment just had let things alone in the first place.

At least, that's my opinion.