I never expected that being back online at home, after nearly 6 months of being dark, would be difficult.
But..it has been an adjustment. I thought I'd be PM'ing and e-mailing friends all the time, yet find it difficult to do so, though I couldn't begin to fathom why. I've been depressed, for the last several weeks--not constantly, but enough that I'm in a very minor "leave me alone, I'm the walking dead" sort of blue funk--which I dislike, but can't do anything about. Manic-depression can really suck, sometimes.
I used to go into chat--the only chat-room online that I've ever used---on Saturdays, to chit-chat with my friends. But tonight, merely found it confusing, and really couldn't think of anything to say--besides the fact that it was a Dr Who chat room and they'd all just watched Episode 10--which I won't see until it either might be kindly sent to me, or shows up on YouTube--so, though I don't mind a teaser, I really hate spoilers, so that kind of left me feeling left out of everything. Anyway, I'd thought my computer desk had arrived, when a knock came at the door, but it was just someone delivering a pizza to my neighbour--and I bugged out of there.
I lost a couple of friends, while away. Not completely, but certainly, we seemed to have drifted apart--that's happened more often that not with me, and while I am used to it, and accept it as a natural occurance in my life--it does sadden me, certainly.
But, on the other side of things, I've made some new friends, been-reintroduced to old friends as well. So, I suppose it all balances out, in the end.







