I Ain't Afraid of No Daleks

Well, I just had the police and my landlady, literally bust down one of my doors, over fears I'd harmed myself of died of a heart attack or something--well, that's nice. I'd always assumed I'd lay here for days without anyone noticing...but, my apartment looks like a pigsty! Ugh!!! Why can't I just have a day of peace and quiet? I mean, I'm touched someone cares, but not thrilled with being woken up out of a sound sleep, by some big burly cop breaking in my door. Damn.

I'm fine, okay? I'm depressed, and not physically well, but, I'm NOT suicidal, and I still have one or two years left to live, at least, I'm not dying yet, so please, no more cops at the door, ey?

I just checked my stats before leaving--do you know, that Friday, my visitor number broke my all-time record, with just under 1300 visits that day?

My record was about 1250, set back during this past summer, I think.
I stop writing in my blog--haven't written a thing all week--and I break my record for visitors?

Wow. Now I'm starting to feel like one of those artists, who are only moderately followed in life, but the minute they die, or stop paining--suddenly they're famous!

Well...I'll never-ever be famous..infamous, maybe, but..that is a bit strange, isn't it? What on earth are they reading, and why? Bit of a mystery, that. Where's columbo, when you need him?

Hi, I'm on a borrowed computer, not much time, here.

Just want to say hi, and thanks for your care and concern. I am a bit under the weather, heath-wise, but am holding my own. I THINK I may be still here in the apartment for another month, afterall, but December will prove the tipping point, financially, as to whether I make a go of it, or not.

I'm only checking my e-mails once a week or less...sometimes it may be days, or it may be several weeks, but I'm trying to check it when I can.

As always, members of DT.com and DWO (you know who you are) can find me as "dustyboots" and leave me a PM through those sites, as I can, sometimes, access them from work. I also have a blog on the SunOnline as well, though I'm only on there sporatically, and there's not much to read, really.

I did manage to get my new WordPress Doctor Who fan fic site up and running, last week, and even got some positive feedback from it, already, it seems, as I just checked the site, which is great to hear. I don't get a lot of feedback on my stories, which tends to make me assume they're rubbish, which I suppose, mostly, they are.

Anyway, I'm not sure, if or when I'll be back up on the internet. I've not communicated with Time-Warner lately...only just got my November bill yesterday, which I'm afraid to look at--tho, with the service shut down, it shouldn't be too bad--but I've still not paid October, which is 91 dollars, so heaven only knows...

I MAY be eligable for some assistance--possibly heating assistance, and someone may be able to help me deal with Social Security. Lots of things still up in the air yet..but..I'm scared, and very vunerable, emotionally, right now...but..I'm trying, okay? It's not much I can do...but I'm trying. Some days, my illness gets the best of me, and the old tired blood makes things, at best, very difficult. Some days, I'm a bit better, and am able to pick myself up and look forward, a little.

I may have a temp job on Friday--only one day, but better than nothing...I'm hoping it won't be canceled. That happens a lot, with this particular temp service, but, on the other hand, they are within walking distance, and you get paid the same day--in cash, if you ask for it. Not many places do that, anymore. But it is a bit of a bother, when a job is cancelled, because they won't tell you, until the last minute--you go there, at half-past five in the morning, they give you your assignment, and bobs-yer-uncle, you're working...it might be sweeping floors all day, or it might be answering phones, but it's better than nothing..but, sometimes, you get there at the crack of dawn, and sit for hours, waiting, only to be told the job's filled, or canceled, and they have no other work available. Bummer, that--especially in winter.

Nothing like getting up in the dark, on a bitter cold morning, sitting around a shabby, dirty, smelly office (set up in a former bar) for hours, drinking lousy coffee out of a styrofoam cup, only to be told to go home!

Anyway, this week, I had several nice things happen--one, a friend sent me a Thanksgiving turkey, so for the first time, since 2004, I'll have a proper holiday dinner at home, which, tho' I'll still be alone, it will help to bring some sanity and normalcy back to my life--if only for a day.

Another friend, sent along a note to David Tennant, and I got an autographed post card--true, I'm not physically attracted to the man, but he is such a cool actor--and, seems to be a pretty neat guy, I guess, that I really am pleased to get that. I've not had an autographed anything, in something like 30 years, I reckon.

I had one more bit of good news, and the possible help from a disability agency--hopefully no SS (Snarky Sacrastic) social workers there, I pray. I hate being treated like rubbish. I'm big on courtesy and respect, mum pounded it into me--but, I suppose I'm living in the wrong time period for that, though.

Well, I have to get off this computer, now, I'm told. Hope you all are well. And, to my American friends, may you have a safe, happy, and blessed Thanksgiving holiday. Cheers.