
Doctor Who: Time Lords Don't Cry, by N.
CHAPTER 12: Facing His Demons
The Doctor stood with hands clenched, head bowed. Pain etched itself on his features, and old and ancient pain, from so far back in his past, he’d thought he’s rid himself of it. “Nine hundred years,” he thought, ‘nine hundred years, and I still have to deal with this.” He swallowed and looked as if he was going to be ill. A full range of emotions rippling through him: shame, hurt, loneliness, sorrow, confusion, and the worst of all, fear. He’d thought, after all these years of traveling and trying to save the universe from itself, he’d run away from all this. But it came back in on him, right in his face, when he’d least expected it.
Staring at a stain on the wall, yet not truly seeing it, the Doctor felt sick inside himself, he suddenly felt...old. Marie looked at him sadly. Getting up from the sofa, she walked over and took him by the hand. "Doctor? I'm sorry if I made you sad."
He turned and looked at her. Finally, the Doctor understood the familiar sensations he got when he was near her. She was very much like he’d been once, and perhaps still was, in many ways. Sighing deeply, he closed his eyes. After a moment he said, “It’s alright, Marie." He sighed with resignation. A Daughter of Rassillon--as he was a Son of Rassillon--their ancient lineage, going back for eons of Time.
The Doctor returned her squeeze. She was only half-Time Lord, so perhaps that's why he'd not felt her presence, before now--felt that intimate connection between souls, that only his fellow Time Lords could experience between each other. 'Well," he thought, scratching his neck, 'dear old Rassillon sure did get around.' He looked into Marie's worried eyes and smiled thinly. It wasn't her fault, and he'd no right to be upset with her. Squeezing her hand again, he said, "It's alright. It’s not your fault. It’s no one’s fault--stuff happens.”
He looked out the window at the night. A cousin, he had a cousin--or was she an aunt? What was this child to him, anyway?. Well, sort of a half-cousin, at the very least. He gave a resigned shrug and a slight smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. He supposed if he could live through watching his world, his people all die, through losing Rose, he could get through this as well. Making a decision, he reburied his pain deep inside his mind. Then, he turned and held out his hand to Marie, smiling warmly. “Come on then, and give your Uncle Doc a nice big hug, eh? It seems that neither of us is alone any more.”
A short while later, the Doctor and Marie were once again seated on the sofa. After a while Marie had gone back in the kitchen and put more hot water on for tea. Marie took a sip from her cup, and shyly looked over the rim at the Doctor. He'd just finished saying that he was wondering, where on earth her Uncle Tobias had got himself to. “They don’t like the light, Marie said quietly, “it’s when the moon was gone, that Uncle Tobias would come out of his room. I'd always hide. He doesn’t know about the tunnel. I found it by accident.” The Doctor raised an eyebrow and took a sip from his cup. “Yes, you mentioned something about that before, that they don’t like light. There are only just so many creatures that fit that description.”
“Creatures” Marie shuddered involuntarily, "What sort of creatures?" "Well,” The Doctor said expansively, “There’s vampires for one. And there’s the Storm Dwellers, the Shadow People, the Nightlings, the Aphoticals, the Mogs, the Kritchets, the Nockwogglers, and let’s see, oh--about a few hundred more that I can think of…not very many at all, in the scope of the universe. Let me think. He cocked his head at her. What do we know, so far, eh, Marie?” He said, looking at her expectantly.
Marie bit her lip. “Ummm--they don’t like light, they kill people, ummm--I’ve seen the blood, from the animals, but the bodies disappear. First it was the chickens, then the goat, then, today, the cows and...and…” She looked away and tried to hide her hurt. He felt her hurt--not just imagined it…truly felt it. Inside himself, and he wasn’t sure how to take that. Hesitating only a fraction of a second, he reached over and hugged her again. “I know, really I do.” He drew back and looked thoughtfully at her. “Hang about, what was that you said before, about a tunnel?”
Marie pointed towards the kitchen. “I found it, one time, when I was moving the old ice box in the corner. I’d dropped a recipe card behind it. There was a trap door underneath. I think it is very old. I remember my teacher at school once, talking about the Underground Railroad being around here. That’s when they hid slaves running away to Canada, back before the Civil War. Maybe it’s from then. I don’t know.” The Doctor was about to reply when a movement outside the window, stopped him.
Without warning, one of the dogs began barking, followed by the other two. Then, they all three yelped in terror, and were suddenly silenced. The Doctor got up swiftly and crossed to the window. The sky was black as pitch. The moon had gone in. The Doctor smiled grimly. “Ah. I do believe Uncle Tobias has finally come home.”

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