I'm pretty upset, right now. Had my hours yanked again...they're cutting day hours, and I'm on top of the list to be cut. I told them I'd have to quit, if they couldn't get me 39 and a half hours next week. I mean it too, as I won't be able to pay the rent. Hard enough trying to buy food and do laundry and pay for medicine--and this kills my getting my meds, now...and doing laundry next week. I'll only be able to get the bare basics on Saturday--cat food/litter, milk, bread, and maybe some peanut butter...God! I hate peanut butter, and some 40 cent boxes of mac and cheese mix. Bleh.
Please don't anyone tell me my life will improve. It just won't this IS my life! It's rubbish and it's here to stay. Someone at the office asked if I'd ever been to that physic that caters to the tourists, in Lake George. No. Don't really believe in the majority of that stuff, over-much, (though I know that there's genuine people out there, most don't have cheesy storefronts) and besides--who wants to hear more bad news? Riiiight--I'm gonna' pay some lady 20 dollars to tell me what I already know? That poo happens and I'm swimming in it? Yeah, no. I'll take a pass, then.
In the eyes of employers--I'm total rubbish. And it hurts to know that. Whether I am or not in fact, doesn't matter. In the world's eyes, I'm just an old garbage scow. I'll never have a good job, not ever. It's just not meant to be. Going to college was a total wast of my time, my money and my life. I should have just stayed where I was: unemployed and living on the dole--I had housing subsidy, food stamps, free medical care...but no. Stupid wanted to "better" her life...yeah, and, for a few short years, it was--but now...I'm worse off than when I was on the dole! Someone just shoot me. Now I know how the Master must've felt. Only my drums are a bugle, and it's playing taps.
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Who took that photo ? Its real good ! and I won't say the obvious but always thinking about you and hopeful for better news like winning the lottery or something davidj