Well, I made it through the day. Gah! People were--pardon my language--bitches and bastards today. This job doesn't do a lot for you, spiritually, let me tell you.
I'm so tired of mean. I know that's life, for some of us, but 40 some-odd years of mean...despite the care of my few friends, I really sometimes feel myself (against my will) starting to hate so-called human beings. I know that must sound awful--does to me--but I can't help it. The human race was just born to be mean--especially to those of us who are--or even just appear to be--less than perfect.
I am sitting, after a nice dinner--cheap steak that I managed to use my culinary skills to make edible, jacketed potato and frozen creamed spinach, followed by some sugar-free butterscotch pudding. Best meal I can honestly say that I've had in over a month...no lie. But, I'm sitting here, debating whether or not to go the expense of going to hospital--my tooth infection is back, I think. I've been struggling all day, 8 hour shift of constant talking, with a seriously swollen neck/jaw--even my supervisor noticed. I just don't know if I should...
...It's the expense, you see. The cab fare to and from, any meds--and if they want to keep me overnight again...just can't do it. I'd have to be AME (refused treatment). Despite my pain, the tremors I'm getting and weakness, and all, I just...can't. No way. It's not like I have any rich relatives--hell, hardly have any relatives at all, anymore. The income from this job is literally all I have--there isn't anything else. Nothing. I just absolutely cannot miss any more work hours--won't make the rent or bills or be able to eat, if I do.
It's not just me, in this pickle....spoke to a lady today, who told me she'd just been fired for being out sick too much (she had a major medical problem) AND, upon termination, completely lost ALL of her heath care coverage.
I wish the world community would get together, and shame our president and Congress and Senate into an NHS system. But...they won't. The world is delusional, like George Bush and his buddies. They think all Americans are rich--and those that aren't are, for all intents and purposes, basically invisible.
Congress spends billions on terrorism protection, and willingly allows millions of Americans to suffer poverty and die, for lack of health care. Who's the terrorist, and who's the human being? God bless America my arse.
Pompadour
I think America must be quite a brutal place to live. Things are far from perfect here - just watched a TV programme depicting rich and poor in London but, at least, you have some chance if you're ill. Or I think you still do.
I'm not political but I think some sort of moderate socialism is only fair. In my world education and health care would be free and private versions of both abolished. Plus more social housing should be made available. If some people were richer than others, fine, but the basic important stuff would be the same for everyone.
If I ruled the world.